I keep trying to start writing but someone needs me or my emotions flip into something opposite of what they were 2 seconds prior. Sounds so cliche and there really isn't a very creative or interesting way to write about emotional ups and downs. But it sure is funny to collect them into a list and laugh about them the next day.
To reflect on how all those little ant hills seemed like The Rocky Mountains at the time. Then not. Then so. Then not. It's like a spinning wheel only the needle never really lands on one feeling for very long. It just keeps on spinning and changing and you are hoping for no! whammies! I thought I got the hard end of the deal, you know, the one who has to grow and birth the baby. But really, he has to deal with this mind boggle of a wife on occasion. Maybe he's the one with the hard part.
+ the weather is so nice, i love this blue sky. it's so beautiful here year-round. i love it. [smile]
- where did this chilly air come from? ARGH! I HAVE NOTHING TO WEAR!!!!! [scowl]
+ so glad i got into a pair of jeans. now i get to choose from TWO pairs of pants each day! [joy]
- damn these are h u g e jeans, i can't believe i am this size right now. why can't i have THREE pairs of pants to choose from?! [sob sob sob]
+ yay for preschool, my son is so happy and will love to play with other kids and outside and paint.....[bliss]
- what the....? why is he the only kid doing __________?! what am i doing wrong, is he really ready for preschool? have i been a good enough mother? i let him watch too much t.v. [sob, sob SOB]
+ this baby is so sweet, love the sleep i get at night. [birds chirping in spring time]
- everything is out of control. this house a wreck, my body is a disaster, i have no idea what i am doing, i am a horrible mother, laundry is all over, the dishes are piled up, the baby book is incomplete, someone won't poop on the potty, it's all going wrong. [gnashing of teeth + sob, sob, sob]
+ these jeans really don't look too bad. [wink in the mirror + smirk]
- you can see the milk-catching pads through every single shirt i put on. i am a circus freak. [hopeless]
+ my whole family is safe and snuggling on the couch. nothing better, more peaceful than being together. [piano sonatas]
- "Mike, can I have a hug?" [ just sobs. just because. not even about one single ant hill.]
+ the house is so clean, this really is such a great day. i am so grateful for my family. [full heart]
- what did i do with all my free time before i had kids? can i have one of those hours? just one? [desperate]
+ dang 6 weeks isn't getting here fast enough. i have one super hot husband. [gnashing of teeth + purring]
+ I can totally do this! I have great boys and a great husband! [now just tattoo this into your brain, Liz]
